Learning about life
Let me start by thanking Kilch. I'm on his laptop without his permission. OH WELL.
I'm flipping around online and running into some old friend's webpages, and I run into a "Cities I've Visited" webpage plugin thing. It's absolutely incredible to see some of the places people have visited -- how people have often been the exact places you've been. And of course, how much you can miss being somewhere. Somewhere where home is. Even with all of the trials and hardships you've been through -- all the long, long hours you've worked without payment... You can still really miss a place.
I don't like to get preachy or self-righteous, but I know above all else, God meant for me to be in the Army. I need to be here. It's how things must be. All week long... All of the long, long week... I feel like quitting- leaving- giving up. I feel like I can't make it very far. I feel like my life can't be this miserable, that I need to find sunnier skies. I feel the need to go away and see if life can't be "easier" someplace else.
And then I have a day like today. A day where the entire world feels like it's closing together. Where all the corners fold back on themselves and meet to form the neat little sphere that this Earth really is. That all of the thousands of little truths in the world piece together and you go: "My what nice peacocks!" Erm, well, yeah. If you don't get the reference, no worries.
It feels like I'm done here -- that I've learned my lesson and achieved far more than I ever could if I would've stayed at home -- but I know I'm not done. I know there is more for me here. I know that I haven't even started yet. I know this because it's just too clear to be anything otherwise.
Thanks for reading.
PV2 LaBRANT
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aka Tread
I'm flipping around online and running into some old friend's webpages, and I run into a "Cities I've Visited" webpage plugin thing. It's absolutely incredible to see some of the places people have visited -- how people have often been the exact places you've been. And of course, how much you can miss being somewhere. Somewhere where home is. Even with all of the trials and hardships you've been through -- all the long, long hours you've worked without payment... You can still really miss a place.
I don't like to get preachy or self-righteous, but I know above all else, God meant for me to be in the Army. I need to be here. It's how things must be. All week long... All of the long, long week... I feel like quitting- leaving- giving up. I feel like I can't make it very far. I feel like my life can't be this miserable, that I need to find sunnier skies. I feel the need to go away and see if life can't be "easier" someplace else.
And then I have a day like today. A day where the entire world feels like it's closing together. Where all the corners fold back on themselves and meet to form the neat little sphere that this Earth really is. That all of the thousands of little truths in the world piece together and you go: "My what nice peacocks!" Erm, well, yeah. If you don't get the reference, no worries.
It feels like I'm done here -- that I've learned my lesson and achieved far more than I ever could if I would've stayed at home -- but I know I'm not done. I know there is more for me here. I know that I haven't even started yet. I know this because it's just too clear to be anything otherwise.
Thanks for reading.
PV2 LaBRANT
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aka Tread
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